Hi, I am making this post with distress and discomfort.
All of my life I have struggled with my weight. My weight keeps on fluctuating. No matter how thin I become, I still think I am obese. I have experimented several diets and has even abused laxatives to remove the waste out of my abdomen so that I look thinner.
Now, I have reached a stage where I consider the mere thought of having food as evil. I barely eat and regret it later. I have the feeling that food is going to make me fat. For the same reason, I try to avoid family parties and any occasions where food is served. I use calorie counters and weight loss calculators every day and this itself is taking too much time.
My sister told that I have got anorexic thoughts, and it is a kind of eating disorder. She asked me to undergo an eating disorder treatment as early as possible in order to avoid further complications.
What do you guys think? Does this sound like an eating disorder of any kind, or is it just disordered eating? I really can't explain how much I am obsessed over this. Please help!