Hi DD/ELW,
I think that you're being too hard on yourselves, I really do. YOU may not believe that you are upto TA/BIR standards but what do your family and friends think?
I know my bro in law thinks that my Bhuna is the best he's ever had, from anywhere. My best mates wife says the same thing about my Jal Frezi. I'm never too happy with my madras but my brother loves it and asks me on a regular basis to "knock him one up"
I know it's been said a thousand times on here over the years but, I'm going to say it again......WE ARE OUR OWN WORST CRITICS..!
Do you honestly believe that you can't recreate food equal to your fav TA/BIR? because I believe that both of you could and I'm very confident that if either one of you was to make me a good Jal Frezi without me knowing it wasn't TA, I wouldn't know the difference (unless you are really poor cooks, which I doubt very much)
I'm working on the last 5 percent at the moment. I'm training the wife (and eldest son) to make curries exactly to the spec that I use, and in time, they will be very proficient (at least that's the plan) and I'm sure that it's going to take it to 100 percent, because I won't have slaved in the kitchen most of the day and get zoned out by the time the ruby's on the table.
Just my theory,
Ray